In these short recent weeks, I have realised the destructive power of misinterpretation of messages. They can break you down and cause miscommunications if the people around you deem it that you are pointing your fingers at them.

What is never meant for them, they deem it as it is and the responses and replies can be immensly hurting, irritating and annoying where the consequences usually end up as a huge disaster and the relations end up in ICU mode. It works in a vice versa way and I too have made the same mistake of all the above till when things become clearer and and the fingerpointing becomes more direct.

Readers, if possible do drop a few notes to share how we can avoid the disasters and to enlighten me about being socially responsible.

Hilarious Imitation Posing of the Rooster

Just for laughs but I still feel Clemens flared better than the dad as he looked more into it in his pose.

What is LOST might never be the same again. Even when found, it might never be the same again.

Instead of letting history repeat itself again and again and the hurt each time deeper and each time more unforgettable,

Let’s move on, start life afresh and bury the hurt deep inside us never to be dug out again.

Cheeky Damir

Damir at 2.5 years old is really full of fun, cheekiness and smart. I really love his impish grin which never fails to brighten up my day and his startled look when he is caught doing something not so nice. I love his dare-devilness always ready to try something new. I definitely love the way he cleverly answers my questions in a politically correct way with the pout of his little mouth and the frown between his forehead as if he has been thinking very hard.

Just can’t help but love him to bits.

Amazing Sunset

In April, I have written that we were planning for a short trip to Malaysia. However the destination was changed to Bintan instead. Yup we went to Bintan during the 1st week of June and had a hell of the time. We all came back very tan and was our skin was peeling just like a snake shedding its skin But whatever it is, the most important thing to me is that the boys had enjoyed themselves and of course had their fill of fun playing with the sand on the beach and the water from the pool. As usual, the nervous mummy (I) had my fill of time being skeptical that something might happen to the boys be it, falling into the sea from the kelong or a sting from the jellyfish. My stomach had been constantly in knots and on the contradictory the smiles were all over my face.

Anyway, looking through the photos, I have picked up a few of my favourite shots

The Beach Boys

The Boys Enjoying the Sea Water

The Kelong Boys

The Pool Boys

My Very Favourite

Yup the last shot I have posted is one of my very most favourite as I thought that it is hilarious. Posting all these, I hope that in future, my boys will have a good memory of the things and places they have done and been to since they are kids.

PS: Boys, mummy will always love you all no matter what happens and thanks for giving me all the good memories.

I know I will have collapsed without you people. I have been sad too long for the wrong reason and I seriously hate myself for falling into a state of self despair and for driving my car in huge circles (if you understand what I mean).

I will like to say that I have come to the terms of reality and by now as I am posting this entry, I will have put the poison in my heart and mind away.

However yet again, putting away the poison now does not mean putting myself and my principle away. I shall still stand firm on my decisions, thoughts and the way I handle things.

Through all of you, I know I have grown again in my heart, mind and soul. I shall not seek to do things that will harm my family or myself in any way (it is not worth doing so). I have also learn that for every action, there will be a consequence and it is up to us to deal with this consequence in either an immature or mature way through a right and proper channel.

Lastly again, I will like to express my heartfelt gratitude and many words of thanks to all of you for holding, perking and propping me up in one of mine darkest period. It is now time to drive my car forward on this long road of life.

PS: When I mean people, I seriously mean people who have been there for me one way or another and of couse those who stayed with me through out. You guys have left footprints in my heart.

The Clemmy, Hubby & Dammy Flowers

Actually yesterday morning, I had received a very nice surprised from my hubby who is away from Singapore. I was quite hesitant to post it up till next month due to some happenings. I was actually afraid to be called a hypocrite, a show off. Yet again, what is there to be afraid about? It is just a gift from a hubby to a wife.

The Message

This was the message that comes with the flowers. It was loving, sweet and touching. It just suddenly dawn upon me that how time flies. It has been 10 years. Yup and yes, we have been together for 10 years be it love or a mistake. Within these years, there have been really a lot of ups and downs. The moment s we spent together has been sweet, bitter, sour and spicy.  I mean I do have my time of frustrations with him and so does he.

But I know the thing that binds us together is the boys: Clemens & Damir. As a father, I will definitely give him 90% (10% deduction is the way he spoils the kids).Even when giving me a gift, all he can think about is the boys.  As a hubby I will rate him 70% (30% of the time we don’t see eye to eye). Anyway this is part of the conversation we had over the phone.

Hubby: Dearie, do you like the gift?

Me: Yup I do but why is it in the pots instead of a bouquet?

Hubby: Well, it will be easier for you to place it on your table if they are in pots.

Me: Okie. Then why 3 pots?

Hubby: Well one from me, one pot from Clemens and another one pot from Damir.

Ya that is hubby, his mind always on the kids.

PS: Dear for once can I be your only priority

Dear just to let you know, I sincerly do want to post this entry up. It is not meant to agitate or show off to anybody.

My Boys, Sister & Colleague-Devi

Over the weekend, my department had one of the functions at the Night Safari which allowed us to bring our kids. Well, not only I was excited but the boys too. They were chirping on it for the whole week till the ‘BIG’ day finally arrives for them. The buffet dinner at Ulu Ulu Court was sumptuous and each condiments & sauces were beautifully paired with the grills by bringing out more flavour in the grilled food. The desserts were refreshing and the boys’ favourite is of course the Black Forest Roulade. Let me share the menu:

Cold Appetizer

Tomato & Olive

Cucumber with Yogurt & Dill

Baby Carrot in Orange Dressing

Mixed Seasonal Salad with Watercress

Dressing

Thousand Island, French & Italian Dressing

Grill on The Spot

Marinated Sirloin Steak (BBQ Sauce & Black Pepper Sauce)

Marinated snapper with Spices & Herb (Lemon Wedge)

Chicken & Pineapple Kebab (Thai Chilli Chutney Compote)

Chipolata Sausage Bratwurst (Cafe de Paris Butter)

Hot Dish

Stir Fried Seafood Rice

Boiled Broccoli with Chinese Mushroom

Sweet & Sour Fish with Capsicum

Mashed Potato with Parmesan Cheese

Dessert

Seasonal Fresh Fruit Platter

Black Forest Roulade Slice

Chilled Sago Honeydew

After all the above goodies, it was a ride on the private tram around the safari. Being a Singaporean, I am ashamed to say that I have never been to the night safari but yet on my 1^st trip that, I was truly impressed with all closed up encounter with the roaming animals and it was indeed really educational for the boys.

Ever since the trip, everything was all about the elephants and giraffe from the boys. They have also since been harping on me to bring them there again.

PS: I will like to thank Devi (my colleague) and Denni (my boss) for keeping Clemens entertained despite his never-ending questions. J